what do i want for my birthday

i dont know what i want i have never asked for anything usually. but this time i know what i want, i want him, i want him to say he misses me, and wishes that i was with him. i dont understand myself, i am tired of this but the emotional baggage is still there. i miss him and i want him back. i dont care i am not interested in anyone else, i am not in the mood to date, i dont wish to be setup. everyone wants to settle my life for me but i am still hurting from what happened. i know they mean well and wish i wasnt hurting. but i am and there is nothing anyone can do about it. this is something i need to deal with work with and live with. i love him i do very much and i always will. i dont think anyone stops loving a person when they leave they just love them a little less, to make room for the hurt.